Disappointment

So I got an email today about the CPE residency I had applied for and interviewed for, and it looks like it is a no go. I must admit I am really disappointed. I was really looking forward to taking a year off of school and doing something different, something that feels more like real life. So now I'm left waiting.... doubting.... confused.... and disappointed. I some times wonder why I ever try to make plans, because they never seem to come to pass.