Feeling Hopeless

I have one of these days every now and then... 

a day where I look through the job listings 

and come to grips once again with the fact that 

there are no jobs in chaplaincy.  

Since January, there has been three jobs across BC and Alberta.  One year long fellowship in Toronto (which I'm over qualified for), and two half time positions available in Ajax, and that's it.  After four years of undergrad work, five years towards my masters, a year residency in Chaplaincy, and now a year of work  and research I feel like there will never be a job at the end of it all.

I love Chaplaincy.  

I love the work that I do.  

There are days where 5 o'clock rolls around and I don't feel like leaving for home yet cause I'm busy enjoying what I do at the hospital.

But today... 

it just feels hopeless... 

it feels like I'll have put three years of time and energy in at St. Joe's and will still get booted to the curb cause my contract is up, and I wont have any other prospects to turn to.

I will be..... 

unemployed.... 

Today I'm feeling hopeless.  Hopefully tomorrow will feel better again.